I've been questioning love lately. It is something that I've never clearly understood on how I feel, how I think, and how other person's feelings and thoughts will be my responsibility and/or affect me in such uncommon ways. Do the butterflies the right symbol to identify love? Or can we say the un-sparks but loyalty and consistency to the commitment are also forms of love? I feel excited when I am in the mood to chase or chased, but when I got one, intimacy was the feeling that I avoided. That's my biggest fear. Being intimate and having a deep emotional attachment to someone are the stupid fears that I need to deal with. Cause what the point of having a relationship if I am too afraid of two main factors of it? I used to think I'll have a deeply connected relationship in the future, but the fact that I'm afraid to feel connected is the most embarrassing thing I've ever done. I often forget how it feels to miss him so badly, how you just wanna hear his v...
by LittleArimbi