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The Reality of Fear.

You are not afraid of the dark, you are afraid on what's in it. 

You are not afraid of heights, you are afraid of failing. 

You are not afraid of the people around you, you are afraid of what they might think. 

You are not afraid to love, you are afraid of love not coming back. 

You are not afraid to try again, you are afraid of getting hurt for the same reason. 

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