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Yogyakarta, November 2021: A Slice of Life

Woof! It's hard to believe that I wrote this blog from Yogyakarta!

Yeah, I kinda make an epic comeback......well that's too much. To be frank, life is too fucked up these days and I think I just need a short getaway. So, here I am! Strolling around Jogja without exact plan. Booked the tickets on D-2, solo traveling. 

Super impulsive yet so happy at the same time. 

Well, we're almost arrived at the end of the year. It's super crazy while I feel my mental state is still in the 2019. 

"What a life!"

I said it almost every single day throughout the year. I left my emotion on 2019 and can't remember where I put it now. 

Why it doesn't feel like I'm achieving something. 

The best lessons that I could take this year is super basic but turns out that's a good sign.

But today, I don't wanna write something sad or anything that brings negative vibes within me. 

I just wanna write something mindful. Kalo kata Isyana, "Biarkan kegelapanmu menemukan titik terang baru." :) 

I don't know what new light feels like but I have several things to be grateful this year.


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